It's the reason why our kitten died tonight. My stupid younger brother wrapped her in a blanket and then fell asleep. When he woke up, the kitten's pink nose and mouth have already gone pale. They weren't able to revive her.
That kitten and her mother used to stay and sleep on my bed. She was so tiny I was so scared to crush her so I just sleep near the edge of the bed. I'm going to badly miss that little bed spacer. :'(
I think it's what I'm feeling these days. I'm getting suffocated by all the work that I need to do and by the people who demand and/or expect something from me.
Work keeps piling up. And I need to improve on a lot of things as soon as possible. I hate feeling left out and behind. Makes me insecure and bitter at the same time.
I don't believe friends need to always meet face-to-face to sustain their relationships. I feel strangled by people (1) who always want/expect me to be with them, (2) who wants to go with me where I'm not inviting them to go, (3) who persistently inquires about what I do, and (4) who expects me to be as open to them as they are to me.
Or maybe I'm just tired. My tolerance levels go all the way down when I'm tired. I lose patience in just a snap. (I instantly cried when I saw our dead kitten. And slapped my brother on his arm so hard my fingers left marks.)
I badly need to regain my balance ASAP.
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